Geani - growing up
Monday, December 26, 2005
Friends that I love and miss. Moments that I like to recall
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Balance
Until now, I was thinking over and over about my first value: Family and Love. I underlined for me and for others over and over how important is for me to have this both. My brother asked me if this value is truly mine, if I have it because I really think like this, or because I was raised in this spirit by my mother. At that moment I was ready to answer that FOR SURE this is my first value, and that is because I discovered it, not because it was implemented in my mind by anybody. :) Funny, ha? I thought, thou that is better to let it be, think it over…leave it in the back of my mind. Once in a while I remembered the conversation and the question that was accompanied by another one: balance between professional and personal life.
I just realized how important my other value of mine is: Growth and Learning. I cannot imagine my life without the possibility of personal development and learning. I love to read, I love to find out new things and be as informed as possible. Reading a book is for me as entering in the mind of a person, as discovering a new universe. Usually I try to understand the mind of the character; I try to imagine how he/she looks like, why the author chose to express a certain idea using an expression or story. Sometimes I argue with the author in my mind, I want to challenge his point of view, I feel or think that I have lived otherwise.:):)
With other occasions I just like to dive in the world created by the author, I just love to imagine how it would look like, if I could live in it. I imagine the streets, the buildings, the clothes, I hear the voices, I feel the smell of the flowers and grass. If I close my eyes I am in the story together with the characters. Most of the times the book I read influences the way I feel, so if I read a reeeaaally sad book I can feel down for several days. Or at least I am questioning the central idea of the story, and try to find my own answer.
For some time I mistaken reading books with finding wisdom, I thought that I can learn life by talks and reading. I still want to use what others lived to discover the world and the universe inside me. I just feel that finally the wisdom of life will come from my own life, from the way I choose to live it, from the way I choose to act every day.
One of the images of mine in the future is me being 80. I’m in my own library, and the fire is burning in the fireplace, because is winter. :) I am very old and my hair is almost white and long, caught like the ladies use to have it in the past. I am smiling and of course I wear glasses while I am sitting in my chair. All around me are a lot of books on every wall, books that I read but there are also a lot of people: my husband, my children and their children, and their children’s children. It’s a family gathering and the small children are asking me - “Wise grandma” - to tell them a story from my past.
Every time I recall this imagine of mine it makes me smile and I know that my life will be beautiful and full. Not only that I will have a family – as my first value shows me – but I will also grow and learn a lot at my job. I know that I will travel, I will learn several languages, sometimes I will work late and it will be difficult, but for sure I will enjoy it. I will read, I will talk with smart and wise people, I will make mistakes, I will love, I will fail, I will have success, I will lose my path sometimes, I will discover friends, I will suffer from enemies, I will live.
Hey, I will GROW :)…
Yes, for sure I want balance and I want Learning and Growth in my life. This is my second value, as important as the first one: Family and Love.
"Driving home for christmas
It’s gonna take some time
But I’ll get there
Driving home for christmas
With a thousand memories."
