Geani - growing up

Sitting quietly, watching the ticking on the wall
She sits patiently she thinks maybe the world will fall
She says "I feel sometimes like I had nearly lost it all"
But the world is in her eyes

"Waiting" she said, "is the hardest thing to do
Don’t feel like somebody else and u don’t feel like u
Sometimes the light around me has the strangest hew
And I wonder what I’m going trough"

And
She’s on fire and the whole world is burning
Yeah, she’s on fire and you feel like the whole world just keeps turning
She says, "I’m so full of doubt, I don’t know if I’ll ever find a way out
Feels like something I read in a book somewhere

I’ve been thinking, u know I’ve been thinking
“Thought” myself into the ground
I’ve been thinking that I’m sinking"

Only half day trough and her mind begins to stroll
She talk to anyone so it’s anyone she told
There’s an empty chair at the end of an empty hall
And she feels small
Faces smile, she’s moving trough the crowd
The sun is shining but is higher in the clouds
She laughs from time to time but she feels a little loud
And she would cry but she’s too proud

And
She’s on fire and the whole world is burning
Yeah, she’s on fire and you feel like the whole world keeps turning
She says, "I’m so full of doubt, I don’t know if I’ll ever find a way out
Feels like something I read in a book somewhere

I’ve been thinking, u know I’ve been thinking
“Thought” myself into the ground
I’ve been thinking that I’m sinking"

And u wanna tell her that she’s gonna be fine
And u wanna tell her that the light hearts when you’ve been blind
She says "all I see stretching out before me is time"
She says "all I see stretching out before me is time"

Oh, so you wanna tell her that she’s gonna be fine
Oh woman, you’re drinking your soda like wine

Ohhh, woman don’t you know that you gonna be fine
Don’t you know that you gonna be fine

Recently I took a test developed by Gallup, after reading a book called “Now discover your strengths”. This book is written by Marcus Buckingham the co-author of “First Break all the Rules” , another great book.

Here are my five areas of talent, as they result from the test. Funny or not I somehow find myself in those descriptions :)







Intellection

You like to think. You like mental activity. You like exercising the "muscles" of your brain, stretching them in multiple directions. This need for mental activity may be focused; for example, you may be trying to solve a problem or develop an idea or understand another person's feelings. The exact focus will depend on your other strengths. On the other hand, this mental activity may very well lack focus. The theme of Intellection does not dictate what you are thinking about; it simply describes that you like to think.

You are the kind of person who enjoys your time alone because it is your time for musing and reflection. You are introspective. In a sense you are your own best companion, as you pose yourself questions and try out answers on yourself to see how they sound. This introspection may lead you to a slight sense of discontent as you compare what you are actually doing with all the thoughts and ideas that your mind conceives. Or this introspection may tend toward more pragmatic matters such as the events of the day or a conversation that you plan to have later. Wherever it leads you, this mental hum is one of the constants of your life.

Restorative

You love to solve problems. Whereas some are dismayed when they encounter yet another breakdown, you can be energized by it. You enjoy the challenge of analyzing the symptoms, identifying what is wrong, and finding the solution. You may prefer practical problems or conceptual ones or personal ones. You may seek out specific kinds of problems that you have met many times before and that you are confident you can fix. Or you may feel the greatest push when faced with complex and unfamiliar problems.

Your exact preferences are determined by your other themes and experiences. But what is certain is that you enjoy bringing things back to life. It is a wonderful feeling to identify the undermining factor(s), eradicate them, and restore something to its true glory. Intuitively, you know that without your intervention, this thing-this machine, this technique, this person, this company-might have ceased to function. You fixed it, resuscitated it, and rekindled its vitality. Phrasing it the way you might, you saved it.

Input

You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information-words, facts, books, and quotations-or you might collect tangible objects such as butterflies, baseball cards, porcelain dolls, or sepia photographs. Whatever you collect, you collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and complexity.

If you read a great deal, it is not necessarily to refine your theories but, rather, to add more information to your archives. If you like to travel, it is because each new location offers novel artifacts and facts. These can be acquired and then stored away. Why are they worth storing? At the time of storing it is often hard to say exactly when or why you might need them, but who knows when they might become useful? With all those possible uses in mind, you really don't feel comfortable throwing anything away. So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away. It's interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove valuable.

Belief

If you possess a strong Belief theme, you have certain core values that are enduring. These values vary from one person to another, but ordinarily your Belief theme causes you to be family-oriented, altruistic, even spiritual, and to value responsibility and high ethics-both in yourself and others.

These core values affect your behavior in many ways. They give your life meaning and satisfaction; in your view, success is more than money and prestige. They provide you with direction, guiding you through the temptations and distractions of life toward a consistent set of priorities. This consistency is the foundation for all your relationships. Your friends call you dependable. "I know where you stand," they say. Your Belief makes you easy to trust. It also demands that you find work that meshes with your values. Your work must be meaningful; it must matter to you. And guided by your Belief theme it will matter only if it gives you a chance to live out your values.

Connectedness

Things happen for a reason. You are sure of it. You are sure of it because in your soul you know that we are all connected. Yes, we are individuals, responsible for our own judgments and in possession of our own free will, but nonetheless we are part of something larger. Some may call it the collective unconscious. Others may label it spirit or life force. But whatever your word of choice, you gain confidence from knowing that we are not isolated from one another or from the earth and the life on it.

This feeling of Connectedness implies certain responsibilities. If we are all part of a larger picture, then we must not harm others because we will be harming ourselves. We must not exploit because we will be exploiting ourselves. Your awareness of these responsibilities creates your value system. You are considerate, caring, and accepting. Certain of the unity of humankind, you are a bridge builder for people of different cultures. Sensitive to the invisible hand, you can give others comfort that there is a purpose beyond our humdrum lives. The exact articles of your faith will depend on your upbringing and your culture, but your faith is strong. It sustains you and your close friends in the face of life's mysteries.

Yeap ...these 5 traits that "they" tell I have seem well known to me :)

…a post written at the end of March :). Sometimes it takes time to actually post it…

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Yes, I know, another basic and simple subject to talk about. I noticed that this is how I feel every time when I talk about some subject here. That the subject actually is something really simple and maybe basic and stupid/childish for many people. Now, when I look at my former postings I think I started at least half of them with this affirmation…:):):). Funny, ha?

Yep, every time I discover something about myself I also discover that it can be summarized in simple words and it seems an obvious thing to do.

Let’s take for example what I re-learned in the last weeks about me, and maybe – a little bit pompous said – about life: it’s very hard to be yourself. Ok, ok – I know who I am and what I stand for, I know what is my core self and all that stuff – but am I able to act “upon” myself every day?

…oh, yes…I feel and think it is a true ART to be able to BE YOURSELF…

Firstly is difficult to remain true to yourself if society/ friends/ people around you appreciate and praise something else.

Secondly, if you manage to remain true to your beliefs, to be the natural you how do you make sure that this is not:
A. hurting someone or even
B. interpreted as being bad/ judged by the others.

Taking the first “hard thing to do” – being you when society recognizes and appreciates something else maybe you’ll say that is a question of being natural. Well, I agree. On the other side, Maslow says in one of his theories – Maslow Pyramid that one of the needs that we have is the "the need of recognition” or something similar to this. This makes some people act in such a way that they will be praised all the time. Even if actually those ways of doing things are not “their own”. I don’t know if you ever did that, but I made this mistake: i acted different than who I am. But I stopped. It was not me.

So I decided that as long as I don’t do bad things I should just be myself even if other like it or not. Maybe “the society” in which you live asks something else than your talents. Than…change “the society” and find one that “suits you” or try to show to those with whom you are your true face. Maybe they’ll like it even more than the other common things.

Just don’t betray yourself. It’s hurtful, confusing…without any purpose.


Now, going further, if you manage to “resist” to the demands of the outside world that may transform you in other person – how do you make sure that people around you are not hurt by your way of being or judge you. The last part with judgement is somehow in the same category with “resistance to society” – only that you have to see the bad parts also. It is again necessary to be very strong as a person and to understand how actually nobody is allowed to judge anybody. Because each of us has its own reality, background, education, needs that make us act…so we start from the beginning on different levels. Nobody can judge because nobody truly and fully understands you. I think in the “personal life” where you deal with feelings is not a matter of right or wrong as long as is not against GOOD.

Is more difficult to make sure that being yourself, you don’t hurt anybody else. For example….let’s talk about ME. Hahahaha :):):):) Why not? Is always cool to talk about you :):):).

I was saying above that in the personal life I think someone cannot impose his/her opinion. Ok, on the other side, when I am in the office I’ve been told that I act in a totally different way: I tend to impose my point of view. Because, I believe that most often in the office you work with facts and information and you have to take the best decision. Is about intellect not about feelings. But it seems that is just my opinion…because THE WAY I AM HURTS THE OTHER people involved.

All the above make me think that it must be A TRUE ART TO BE YOURSELF. First to have the maturity and will to discover who you are, and the to use that wisely so it becomes truly significant for you and the others instead of bringing negative things to the world.

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