tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3290314992916236632006-12-09T09:35:31.850-08:00GeaniBlogger212tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-329031499291623663.post-55078517512928010742006-12-09T09:33:00.000-08:002006-12-09T09:35:31.990-08:00Today is one Saturday. One Saturday after the first weekend in Romania post IC. One Saturday before the XMM, one Saturday that I can spend home with my parents. ...you would say maybe that this means "the second Saturday" not "one Saturday". but I would say otherwise, because this day is special. is special because is the first one after a long long time, when I feel I grow up. I'm out of my comfort zone, I took important decisions about me and how I will be from now on, I'm different. it's also the day when i decided to have a blog. a very difficult decision i would say, because i was always afraid that someone will read what i write and will laugh. :) it's not that i feel suddenly smarter, i just that i feel suddenly a little bit more courageous. if I would have to describe myself at this moment it would be very difficult. i would say that i am very happy - feeling that i grow up, that i am sad - missing india, that i am confident in myself, that i am afraid because i have a lot of responsibilities in the next period, that i am searching for the true me, that i found new pieces of my soul in the last weeks, that i am shy writing on this blog, that i have courageous thoughts about the future.... ...so i would say about me that i grow... my friends tell me that this is only the conference feeling and that it will pass away. i decided that they are not right. that the feelings and the spirit will remain like this forever if i decide so for myself. is true that the challenge will be to remain like this when the other around me will forget about this mood, or when the situation will be difficult. but this week i learnt about "will"...and so i know :) Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to cry So come on courage!<br />Teach me to be shy 'Cause it's not hard to fall And I don't wanna lose<br />It's not hard to grow When you know that you just don't knowGeanitag:blogger.com,1999:blog-329031499291623663.post-87890639222299981352006-12-09T09:33:00.000-08:002006-12-09T09:35:16.125-08:00Today is one Saturday. One Saturday after the first weekend in Romania post IC. One Saturday before the XMM, one Saturday that I can spend home with my parents. ...you would say maybe that this means "the second Saturday" not "one Saturday". but I would say otherwise, because this day is special. is special because is the first one after a long long time, when I feel I grow up. I'm out of my comfort zone, I took important decisions about me and how I will be from now on, I'm different. it's also the day when i decided to have a blog. a very difficult decision i would say, because i was always afraid that someone will read what i write and will laugh. :) it's not that i feel suddenly smarter, i just that i feel suddenly a little bit more courageous. if I would have to describe myself at this moment it would be very difficult. i would say that i am very happy - feeling that i grow up, that i am sad - missing india, that i am confident in myself, that i am afraid because i have a lot of responsibilities in the next period, that i am searching for the true me, that i found new pieces of my soul in the last weeks, that i am shy writing on this blog, that i have courageous thoughts about the future.... ...so i would say about me that i grow... my friends tell me that this is only the conference feeling and that it will pass away. i decided that they are not right. that the feelings and the spirit will remain like this forever if i decide so for myself. is true that the challenge will be to remain like this when the other around me will forget about this mood, or when the situation will be difficult. but this week i learnt about "will"...and so i know :) Stones taught me to fly Love taught me to cry So come on courage!<br />Teach me to be shy 'Cause it's not hard to fall And I don't wanna lose<br />It's not hard to grow When you know that you just don't knowGeani